00:00:00TRUDI LAWRENCE: My name is Trudi Ann Lawrence. It is June 12, 2013. It is
roughly about 11: 07 a.m., and I'm at Kean University in Hutchinson Hall. Can
you tell me your name, your full name?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: My name is Millie Gonzalez.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: And your age, if you don't mind.
MILLIE GONZALEZ: I'm thirty-four.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Can you state your ethnicity for the record?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: Hispanic.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: How long have you lived in your home?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: About thirty-four years.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Do you mind sharing the cost of the home?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: From the time that it was purchased?
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Right.
MILLIE GONZALEZ: I don't know, probably something I can give you later. But
it's my parent's home, so.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Okay. How many rooms are in the house?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: One bedroom. You need all the other rooms, or…?
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: The bedroom is fine.
MILLIE GONZALEZ: It's just -- well, there's just a bedroom, yeah.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Okay. Is there a reason why you chose to live in that house?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: Again, it was my parents' home, so that's where I grew up.
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TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Okay. How about the neighborhood? Is there a reason why
maybe your parents chose the neighborhood or you chose to stay in the neighborhood?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: Yeah, absolutely. It's definitely a friendly neighborhood.
It's very family-friendly. We're six blocks away from the beachfront, so it's
close to the beach. Just a good neighborhood altogether.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Can you state the neighborhood first?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: Yeah, sorry. Union Beach.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Okay, Union Beach. Is there a reason that you like this
state in particular?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: The reason why I like the state?
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Yes.
MILLIE GONZALEZ: I'm a Jersey girl at heart. I don't know. Every time I leave
New Jersey, because I leave for conferences or vacations and for things like
that, and I like where I go, but when I come back, I know this is where I
belong. I don't really know why. I just feel like this is home.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Okay. Tell me about your family. Who makes up your family?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: At home, I was living with my mom.
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TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Okay.
MILLIE GONZALEZ: But I have other family. But at home, that's who I was living with.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Right. What is your occupation?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: I do public relations.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: How long have you been doing it?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: Approximately ten years, a little bit over ten years.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Okay. Do you mind sharing your salary or income bracket?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: I'd rather not.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Okay. Tell me some places that you hang out in the area.
MILLIE GONZALEZ: In the Union Beach area?
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Yeah.
MILLIE GONZALEZ: Probably one of the most frequent places that I would hang out
and spend some time is at the beachfront. That's probably one of the biggest
things. Other than that, home and friends' homes, that's basically it.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Okay. How involved are you in your neighborhood, in your community?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: I'm not, I'm not. Yeah.
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TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Okay. How would you describe the schools, the economics of
the community, the reputations, any nicknames that it might have, if there's a
lot of crime or not?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: No. It's actually -- I think I mentioned before it's a very
kind of family-friendly neighborhood. Schools, I think, there's one main public
school, which I think it's great. There are certainly people from all economic
backgrounds. If I had to guess, I would say we certainly -- our community kind
of lower middle class community but somewhat diverse. And I'm missing some of
the questions here. You mentioned schools and…
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: The crime.
MILLIE GONZALEZ: Yeah. Honestly, when crime happens, you hear about it because
00:04:00it's not as common.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Okay.
MILLIE GONZALEZ: It's just not common, so you do hear about what happens. So it
certainly occurs. It's just not something that we're constantly dealing with in
terms of what's happening in town.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: And the overall general reputation of the community?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: I think it's good. I've never said I live in Union Beach and
had somebody be like, "Oh, that's terrible," or even, "Oh, that's great."
Honestly, frankly, I think until Super Storm Sandy happened, Union Beach was
barely on the map. People didn't really recognize it. But then all of a
sudden, people started to recognize it as one of the places that was affected by
the storm. I think we're kind of our own little town and keep to ourselves in a
way but also in a very community way.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Okay. Now we're going to begin to talk about the storm.
00:05:00When did you first hear that the storm was coming?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: Probably a couple days before it actually occurred. It really
started to get a lot of momentum on the news. But maybe even sooner than that.
I'd say at least a week, if not before that, when I first heard about it.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: What were your first thoughts when you heard the storm was coming?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: Honestly, I went and thought about the previous storm that had
occurred, which right now I can't remember what.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Irene.
MILLIE GONZALEZ: Irene, was it Irene? So I thought about Irene and just thought
about the fact that we had -- my family and I, my mom and I, who like I said
live together. My sister who lives in her own house, in Keansburg, a different
town that was also affected. Went to one of my friends' houses in Cranford.
And basically, nothing happened. There was more damage technically in Cranford
with the downed trees and water surrounding the areas where we literally
00:06:00couldn't leave Cranford to go home because those areas were so messed up.
I thought about that and just thought about, "Okay, we really need to assess
whether or not we're staying or going." And the other thing was just waiting it
out to see news-wise, forecast-wise what was going to change.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: What did you expect about the storm?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: Similar, similar. Kind of thought that what happened with
Irene would happen again.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Okay.
MILLIE GONZALEZ: We didn't get any water damage, we didn't really get any major
wind damage or anything like that at home, so kind of expected the same thing.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: How did you prepare? What were the precautions that you made?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: As it got closer, I would say, literally… let's see that
happen on, what, the 28th or 29th, I think? As it got closer, one, just
00:07:00thinking about it, and two, talking with my family to decide what we were going
to do, whether or not we were going to go again to Cranford or try to go
somewhere else, and… did not prep. I mean, it's a broad question in the sense
that it depends on when.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: In terms of supplies. Did you go to the store to prepare anything?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: No, not really. So I kind of to fast-forward a little bit, my
mom, my sister and I decided that we were going to go to my sister's house in
Keansburg because she has a second floor, so we figured if anything occurred on
the first floor, we can evacuate to the second floor.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Okay.
MILLIE GONZALEZ: So that was part of the prep, but also, just kind of getting
not even -- I would say three to five days' worth of clothes and medicine and
00:08:00just stuff that I would need for a couple of days. I called her, made sure she
got batteries, made sure she had the things that everybody talks about, the
canned foods and the water bottles and those kind of things. But again, enough
for max five days, a week, something like that.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Okay.
MILLIE GONZALEZ: Like, "Yeah, we're fine. We've got everything. I have stuff
in the cabinets," and whatever. We weren't scared of it. We weren't afraid of
anything major happening, because in the thirty-four years that I've lived in my
house and the forty plus that my parents had lived in my house, nothing had ever occurred.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Okay. Do you feel like you had adequate warning?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: Yeah, I'd say we had adequate warning.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: How do you feel about the governor and his warnings?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: I have to be honest. I don't recall specifically anything from
00:09:00the governor, so.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: That's fine. Did your area have an evacuation warning, and
did you evacuate?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: We did evacuate. When we evacuated, we did -- and I'm assuming
at some point it changes to a mandatory evacuation. But when we evacuated, it
was still a recommended evacuation, just kind of like…
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Okay.
MILLIE GONZALEZ: So technically, we had not yet evacuated, but we decided to evacuate.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Okay. Did you make any preparations for your cars?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: Yes. So I am disabled, physically disabled, and my car is a
van with an accessible ramp. It's an electric ramp, which took basically a year
to get. So I wanted to make sure that at the end of all this, I was going to
still have a car. The only place in my town is literally an abandoned -- like
Bradley's Parking Lot, a store that no longer exists.
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TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Okay.
MILLIE GONZALEZ: Basically, everybody in the town that has a car and was worried
put their car in this lot, so yes. My van went to this abandoned parking lot
that luckily, knock on wood, never gets water, did not get water during the
storm, so my car was okay.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: That's good. Take me to the day of the storm and when -- I
guess for you guys it hits Sunday. So, where were you when you really started
to see like, "Oh, the storm is here. It's arriving"?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: We decided to go to my sister's house, like I said, in
Keansburg, and that's where we were. It probably actually started -- I'm not
sure of the days. You said Sunday. I don't even know what day it was
[unintelligible - 00: 10: 49] to this point. I think it started -- so my
birthday is on October 27th. I think that it started October 28th. The winds
and stuff started on the 28th. And I think the actual storm part may have
00:11:00started the next day, but I'm just not sure.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Right.
MILLIE GONZALEZ: But anyway, so basically, the first thing that we saw was wind
and how much the trees were moving and just the power of it. You just already
saw how wild the winds were going to be. So that was the first sign of it.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Okay.
MILLIE GONZALEZ: What was the rest of the question? I'm sorry.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: That was it. You had the conditions of rains and winds.
Did your power go out? If it did, when did it go out?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: Yes, our power went out, again, technically that evening before
the actual storm.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Okay. What did you do? Did you go to bed?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: No. We did not go to bed. I guess at some point, yeah. At
some point, we didn't really have a choice. It was one of those worst
00:12:00situations where you go to bed but you're kind of listening to the wind and
you're looking out the windows and you're trying to prep for all of whatever is
going to happen. I still had a little bit of power on the phone, so frankly,
trying to check Facebook and see what else was going on in the world because it
was faster to check Facebook than it was to try to go to local news channels'
websites. When you go to Facebook, everything was there. So it's like "Okay,
everybody else in Union Beach. What's going on? Who has power?", and trying to
figure those things out. Yeah, I guess at some point eventually, we did just go
to bed. But -- I'm sorry, my memory is a little skewed in terms of the series
of events, but the storm itself, after we saw the winds and after we kind of
heard the things and everything else -- tell me if I'm going too far ahead of it.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: No.
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MILLIE GONZALEZ: But basically, I was downstairs in my sister's guest bedroom
and looking out the window. I -- all of a sudden it got really, really dark,
and I was like, "Okay. I think the storm is coming," and I'm kind of yelling
out the door. My mom's in the living room. My sister is in the kitchen. She
has a split level, so she was in the kitchen kind of looking into the lowest
part of the house to see kind of what was going on. Nothing was happening, and
all of a sudden it started to rain. Harder and harder, it started to rain. And
literally, out of a movie, like it was out of a movie, just -- I was looking out
the window to her guest bedroom, and I saw just this dark -- what looked like
black water started to come down the streets, just tons of water coming down the
street. It started to seep on to the property. It looked like it was going to
come slowly at first, but then all of a sudden, you just saw more and more and
00:14:00more water coming, getting higher and higher and higher on the property. What's
crazy about that is that although my sister lives in Keansburg, she also lives
about six blocks from the beachfront of Keansburg. Her particular place in
Keansburg had not received flood. Like if there's flooding all around her,
fine, but there had never been flood on her property before.
So we're watching the water and I'm watching the water rise and I was like, "You
know what? The water is coming up pretty fast." She yells from the other
corner of the room, "I think there's water coming into the house." Okay, so
we're still watching it. She's like, "It's coming in, but it's not too bad."
She puts towels down; we're trying to keep it under control. And again, it felt
like it happened within minutes, but just I watched the water rise and started
-- my sister's car was outside the window, so I could see my sister's car. It
was a Ford Escape, so kind of a mini-SUV, mini-truck, whatever it is. So,
00:15:00pretty high off the ground.
I watched the water levels come up towards her car. I said, "The water is
getting close to your car." She was like, "All right. Keep watching and let me
know what happens." I'm watching it. It starts flashing. The car starts
flashing. The horn starts going off. Now, the alarm is full blown. I'm like,
"Okay, your car is basically underwater at this point. The bottom half of your
car is underwater." No sooner did I say that, I heard that kind of again, movie
sound, of [sound] just -- that's it.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Yeah.
MILLIE GONZALEZ: It just shorted out. It was not -- I was like, "Your car just
died." I was like, "Okay." Well, at that moment, I was like, "I gotta go to
the bathroom." So I get out of the room, and when you step out of the room,
there's a little -- I was on my crutches at that time, because the house is not
accessible for my wheelchair. So I was on my crutches at that time, and I
stepped out of the room and there's just little kind of square carpet before you
00:16:00get to the bathroom. So I stepped on that on my way to the bathroom, and my
foot sank and my crutch sank and I -- excuse my language, but I was like, "Holy
shit. I think there's water in this coming in." No sooner did I say, "I think
there's water coming in," my sister says "It's starting to flood down here." I
see water seeping into the living room. I was like, "We got to go upstairs."
That was it. I finished going to the bathroom, got back out. We took what we
had brought with us, we took it upstairs. And that was it, didn't know what was
going to happen for the next couple of hours. Again, no electricity at of this
point, no way to even see how bad things were going on downstairs.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Was it dark out? Was it nighttime?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: It was very dark. I see -- that part is so not in my memory in
terms of timing. I do remember just thinking that the floodwaters were coming
faster than I had expected based on the last forecast I had been able to see
00:17:00before we lost the electricity, before we lost everything else. It was coming
in faster than they said it was going to come in.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Right.
MILLIE GONZALEZ: Yeah, it was definitely dark. Whether it was more dark because
of the storm itself, clouds and things like that, probably.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: That's what I was trying to figure out, if it was night.
MILLIE GONZALEZ: Yeah, probably. But it was certainly dark.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Okay.
MILLIE GONZALEZ: Yeah. At some point, it was just hard to function in the rooms
because there was just nothing. Yes, so that was basically -- I would say the
first couple of hours of what we experienced.
That's all very -- putting it very lightly. All I can say is that I will never
forget the impact or the impression that the floodwater is coming down the
street, coming onto the property, flooding my sister's car, coming into the
house, all those things. They're so clear. Those pieces are so clear, are
00:18:00things that I'll never forget.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Okay. Did you have anyone that you needed to communicate
with apart from your mom and your sister?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: Yes. One, my dad, who lives in a different part of New Jersey,
just to let him know that we were okay. But we were unable to do that. So that
point, again, no cellphones. And something that I didn't realize until this was
happening, that when you're connected to Verizon DSL or any one of those
packages where you get phone Internet and cable or whatever those things are,
your phone is also -- your landline phone technically is not a landline phone,
so your phone shuts off as well. Because we had no home phone, we had nothing.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Okay.
MILLIE GONZALEZ: So there was just no way of communicating with anybody. And
then also, while it was less of a necessity in terms of anything that I needed,
I knew that my friends -- thanks to Facebook, thanks to conferences, and things
like that, I have friends in every part of our country, who were watching what
00:19:00was going on in Union Beach, knowing that I live there. So ideally, I would
have been able to get in touch with them as well.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Okay. Did you eventually go to sleep?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: Yes.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Okay.
MILLIE GONZALEZ: Yeah.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Did you sleep peaceful?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: No. Did I sleep peaceful? No. Actually, we kept waking up.
Nerves were pretty high. Anxiety was really high. Yeah. What else? Sorry
about that, yeah.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Okay.
MILLIE GONZALEZ: Broken sleep, for sure.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: When did you notice that the immediate storm ended?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: Probably the next morning, probably not 'till the next morning,
because it did last, the rains and things lasted quite a bit.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Okay. What was going through your head when you woke up the
next day?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: Wanting to know how bad it was. Actually, can I backtrack for
00:20:00a second?
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: You sure could.
MILLIE GONZALEZ: In the storm and everything, once we were upstairs, we were
still trying to look out the windows and things like that. Things that were
making an impression -- and I say making impression because there was just a
phrase in Spanish that basically means it's making an impression on you but it
probably doesn't make sense in English. But my point is that something that
kind of sticks out in my mind is that there were… garbage, like dumpsters.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Right.
MILLIE GONZALEZ: That were floating in the streets. They looked like cardboard
boxes. They looked like it was easy for them to move. And they were metal
dumpsters going down the streets. There were just people's things all over the
00:21:00place. In Keansburg, there is the Keansburg Boardwalk, the Keansburg Amusement
Park. We started we see the arcade machines floating around the streets, things
that for us, we grew up going to Keansburg Arcade, and now we're seeing these
things floating around in the streets. Just wild, wild things that you start to
see. And realizing in that point how powerful this was, how much damage there
already was and stuff that we couldn't see, that was crazy.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: This was before you went outside?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: Yes, absolutely. This was literally rain still falling,
floodwater still in the streets. You could see some of the neighbors trying to
hang out on their porches but not even being able to stay there because the
00:22:00waters were going so high. Because a lot of the houses in Keansburg, just like
they are in Union Beach, are very low, single-level homes.
Just knowing by looking out the window that these homes were flooded. Pretty
much every single home around us was flooded. That part was kind of crazy. And
I probably went off topic, so.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: No, it's…
MILLIE GONZALEZ: You can put me back in.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: It's fine. Basically, you're telling me -- it flows. When
did you actually go outside?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: Let's see. I personally did not probably go outside for at
least three days after the storm.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Okay.
MILLIE GONZALEZ: At least three days.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: What did you see when you finally went outside?
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MILLIE GONZALEZ: Everything. Things that did not belong outside. One of the
other things that was startling -- just talk about randomness. We did see some
of the arcade games. We saw -- one of the dumpsters that I mentioned earlier
was wedged between the back neighbor's house and my sister's fence, just wedged.
I don't know how it got there, but it was wedged. My sister's car's not
working. Just debris everywhere, debris everywhere, trees and just garbage.
One of the things that was in my sister's front lawn for a very long time was
the seat to a child's potty, which is just sad, because it's a part of little
kid's life growing up or whatever it is, it was a kid's. People in Keansburg,
00:24:00there's -- what I saw in Union Beach was different, so hopefully we'll have a
moment to get there as well. But in Keansburg, seeing just people kind of not
knowing what to do with themselves. Yeah. I don't know. Just destruction, a
lot of destruction.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: What did you do?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: That day, probably nothing. I think -- I can't recall again
days-wise how many days it was 'till we finally went -- we were finally able to
go to Union Beach later. I want to put in a story that you'd have no way to ask
about, but the following day, when the storm was over, the waters had not yet
00:25:00receded. We were all -- I'm still upstairs. My sister had gone downstairs to
assess the damage. And I hear my sister laughing. I was like, "Why are you
laughing?" She was like, "'Cause I'm looking outside the window because
somebody is singing O Solo Mio outside the window and I'm trying to figure out
who it is." I'm like, "Okay." She's like, "It's our father. He's in a
rowboat." My dad could not get to us because he couldn't call us. He couldn't
get to us in the car because the floodwaters were still out, so he parked his
truck by Highway 36, took out his row boat from the back of his truck, and took
the rowboat down the street to my sister's house to make sure we were okay.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Where does your dad live?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: He lives in Perth Amboy. So getting out of Perth Amboy --
because Perth Amboy had, from what I understand, had a lot of damage, wind
damage and trees down and things like that, so not so much water but more other
kinds of damage.
Yeah, and I say that story, one, because it just shows kind of the power of
00:26:00family but also how desperate people were to figure out what was going on. So I
say that. And the fact that we couldn't get out. So this was a good
twenty-four hours probably after the storm that there was still a ton of
floodwater and stuff.
So, that was that. And then -- go ahead. I don't know. I don't know where to
go from there.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Okay, I'll [unintelligible - 00: 26: 36]. Did your sister
suffer any damages?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: Yes. The car, like I mentioned, completely gone. And my
sister's car was only a couple months old, still paying it out, so definitely.
Her split-level portion of her house was completely flooded, several feet of
water, probably a good four plus feet of water. The remnants of that and
00:27:00everything that was coming through the floors that I had experienced when I was
leaving that room covered the guest bedroom, the bathroom, the closets
downstairs, the living room, the kitchen, all of that, water steeped in from the
bottom. So yeah, she experienced a lot of damage--leaking in the roofs and the
ceilings, lots of things.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: What was the mood of the community?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: In Keansburg?
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Yes.
MILLIE GONZALEZ: What's interesting is that for me, the feel of the community in
Keansburg, possibly because it's not my community, felt very different than my
community in Union Beach when I got to Union Beach. I would say that the
community in Keansburg was just as it was before, in some ways. There are
00:28:00neighbors that kind of speak to each other and there are other people that --
you do feel like people are kind of checking in with each other, but at the same
time, I think it was such a devastation personally for people in Keansburg who
are very low-income to begin with to have basically in some sense had nothing
and lost everything. So that part, you could see that. You could see that in
the faces. It was much quieter than it always was. Keansburg's kind of rowdy.
It was quiet. It was just solemn. It was solemn. It was just kind of sad all
the way around.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Were you able to get in touch with anyone else? Your
cellphone wasn't working. Was it working, or it wasn't?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: No. At some point -- we had AA batteries and a portable
cellphone charger. My sister and I kind of took turns. But every two AA
00:29:00battery would basically charge your phone for five minutes before the batteries
were wasted and that was it, you had five minutes to use your phone. So yeah,
if we needed to get in touch with anybody, we could a couple days later. But
again, very short periods of time.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Did you have cellphone coverage when you needed it?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: Cellphone coverage, like the cellphone…?
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Like you had service?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: Yeah, I guess so. You know what? Because during the major
parts of the storm, we had no way to charge our phones, so we didn't know that.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Okay, so it was dead anyway, okay.
MILLIE GONZALEZ: Yeah.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Take us to the next day. How did you do your day-to-day
necessities--showering, eating? Was any of that at least affected by the storm
to begin with, or…?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: All of it.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Okay.
MILLIE GONZALEZ: All of it was affected. No hot water. No stove. No oven. No
00:30:00microwave. No can openers mean. Anything that was on power that needs to be
plugged in did not exist. We actually, at my sister's house did not have power
for thirteen days, so that was thirteen days of all of that. So yes, how did we
do the day-to-day? The next day, the first day of not having a good shower's
okay. One day, you get through a day. Because you know what? At that point,
schools were closed. You couldn't go anywhere anyway.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Right.
MILLIE GONZALEZ: The power was not on in the town, so there was nowhere to go.
Even if you could go somewhere, there's nowhere to go. There's still a lot of
water in the streets, so you couldn't go anywhere anyway. That was it, yeah.
So, cold showers, cold showers for a couple of days.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Okay. What about eating?
00:31:00
MILLIE GONZALEZ: The first couple of days, it was a matter of leftovers that
were still okay. Again, the refrigerator wasn't working, so that was very short-lived.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Okay. Did you have any medications that needed to be
refrigerated that were affected?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: Not that needed to be refrigerated, no.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Okay, so you're in good standing. Did you stay, or did you
go back to Union Beach?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: A couple days later, I'd say about three days later, the water
had receded enough in the streets that we could get leave and go back to Union
Beach. And we wanted to go kind of check it out. We had both gotten a lot of
text messages and phone calls and Facebook messages saying, "What's going on?
I'm watching Union Beach. It looks destroyed." We had no idea what was going
on. We were like, "What do you mean it's destroyed?" We had no clue.
00:32:00
So yes, we finally got to go back to Union Beach about three days later, and we
hadn't even gotten to our street yet and the devastation was incredible. It was
incredible. We almost didn't recognize our town. There were armed guards;
there were tanker trucks, basically, army trucks at the end of most streets.
But even to get to our street, we need to just show our ID to get down our street.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Which street do you live on in Union?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: 6th Street in Union Beach.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Okay.
MILLIE GONZALEZ: Yeah, almost literally six blocks from the ocean, maybe seven
to the shore.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: From Union?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: Yeah, from Union.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: That's parallel, I should say?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: Yeah.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Okay.
MILLIE GONZALEZ: Which is interesting because of all the different bodies of
00:33:00water in Union Beach, obviously people got affected from the beachfront up to
basically us, a little bit further, and then from the other body of water that's
closer to what used to be the Union Beach Adult school. I don't know what it is
now, but anyway, that area, there's also water behind there.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Yes. That's the area by the marshes and the swamps? Okay.
MILLIE GONZALEZ: Right. So then, kind of water came from both ends. People
down towards that area seemed to have gotten, in some cases, more damage than
people that were further away, closer to the water but further away from the
water. I don't know if that makes sense. Closer to the beachfront, rather,
but further away from there. But anyway, so we got to our street, and already,
we're only talking, like I said, about three days later, and pulling into the
driveway and opening of the door, you could already start smell the dirty water
edging on mold. It was already bad. You already knew that there was damage.
00:34:00That's it. We found out -- we opened our doors and there was still water. All
of our carpets were still soaked. There were stuff that this is a single-level
home. Like I said, one bedroom, one living room, kitchen, bathroom, and a
little kind of foyer, where everything else is. Stuff that was supposed to be
in the kitchen was in the living room, complete opposite side of the house.
Some furniture knocked over, just everything wet, everything. I couldn't
believe it.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: You made no preparations to preserve your home?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: No. Other than -- before we left, I think we had moved a
couple things. I moved a couple things on top of my bed, like silly things,
like a bag of new clothes with a couple little things that I had gotten.
00:35:00Nothing, but nothing. No, in terms of the home, honestly, the last thing we
expected was our home to get water.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Okay.
MILLIE GONZALEZ: So, no.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Okay. How long before at least some stores were open in
your area? We're in Union Beach now. Wait. Quick question. Did you ever go
back to Keansburg or you stayed in Union Beach after that?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: We have not stayed in our home since then.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Okay.
MILLIE GONZALEZ: Yeah, I know. Sorry. It's a little confusing.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: No, it's not. I guess it's wherever you were, I guess.
MILLIE GONZALEZ: Right.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: The question.
MILLIE GONZALEZ: Well, they're closed enough that I can kind of answer in
general. So literally, kind of Union Beach or Keansburg or both Highway 36 so
00:36:00you'll just literally go down a couple…
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Lights.
MILLIE GONZALEZ: Yeah, like a mile or so and you're in the next town. So, it's
all generally the same area. I don't know how long I would say minimally.
Gosh, minimally about a week before the normal things were open, like Walgreens
and McDonalds, even. I don't remember. One of the days -- I guess that
McDonalds had just opened. And again, timing-wise, I'm sorry. I can't even
give you specifics because I don't remember. But I'd say roughly a week after
things had happened, maybe the longer and McDonalds opened, you'd think
McDonalds was a gourmet restaurant that was giving away free food. I think
people -- there was such a big line to just go to McDonalds, and I think people
just wanted a little bit of normalcy and wanted food because they had been
eating probably cold food for a week, because nothing in the area was open.
That was wild. Just watching that occur was interesting. And yeah, Walgreens,
00:37:00I'd say at least a week or two. All the other things, ShopRite, all those
stores, it took a bit to get those all back and running, because all of them
lost electricity as well, so all their foods spoiled and everything else.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: How was it to get gas? How bad was gas lines or gas shortage?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: Gas shortage was awful. My dad had actually -- probably about
five days after the storm, my dad had finally managed to find, buy a generator,
a very small generator. But again, the generator needed gas, so he was getting
gas from towards the Perth Amboy area early on. But then that started to be
harder to get as well. So the shortages were terrible. Again, we couldn't --
in some sense, we couldn't go anywhere. You don't need gas for your car because
there's no place to go. There was so much devastation that the thought of even
00:38:00trying to go work or trying to do whatever it was, it was the last thing on
somebody's mind. It was just trying to function at this point and get through
the day. The only thing we needed gas for technically was the generator. So my
dad was able to bring some gas for a while. Then when the gas shortages let up
a little bit in that area of New Jersey, the lines were outrageous. At least
half an hour on a good day, on a good time to get gas, but if not, more like an
hour and a half, two hours to get gas.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: How was the mood in the community of Union Beach when you
arrived on the third day?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: People were walking around like zombies. It was like a
00:39:00town-wide funeral is what it felt like. So sad, so lost, so… yeah. I don't
know. Just really downright depressing. People… I think in the beginning, at
least, very just shocked. Shocked and sad at all that was happening, because
everybody started hearing what had happened to this family and that family, the
houses by the shore. Not even being able to get to the beachfront. That's what
I mean by shore, sorry, to get to the beachfront. Not even being able to go
there because it was all blocked off and knowing how bad things were, blocks in,
six, seven plus blocks in, to know that what was going on closer to that water
line was awful.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: How did you begin cleaning, both you and Keansburg, your sister?
00:40:00
MILLIE GONZALEZ: I'll talk more about myself just because my -- Union Beach,
because that's her thing. In some sense…
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: You were back in Union Beach, okay. So yeah.
MILLIE GONZALEZ: Yeah. Well, yeah. We haven't stayed in Union Beach since
because the damage was so bad that we haven't been able to stay there. But we
-- how did we start to clean up? The first thought was to try to salvage
anything we could. Basically, anything that touched anything below bed level
was gone, was drenched and not salvageable. So really, we kind of picked up
things that were in higher cabinets -- what do they call that? The curio
cabinet that's in the kitchen and some of my mom's stuff that was in there, we
00:41:00grabbed that. And the bit of clothes that we can grab that wasn't soaked, we
grabbed that.
So again, at first it was just the taking stuff that was salvageable. That was
kind of the first step. After that, it just became buying extra-strength
industrial garbage bags and just picking up and throwing away, picking up and
throwing away. And that was it. Yeah.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Who did you look to for support? Did you call your power
company or insurance company and FEMA?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: Yeah. We actually called FEMA as soon as we found out that our
home was flooded. Well, my sister called FEMA as soon as she found out that her
home was flooded, which was the next day, she had already called. As soon as we
found out that our home was flooded, we called FEMA. Literally from the
driveway of my house, we called FEMA and tried to apply and did what we had to
00:42:00do. Power company, no, not right away. Insurance company, we actually do not
have flood insurance, and so, no, we didn't have an insurance company to call.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Okay. How long did that response take? Were you able to
get through immediately to FEMA and get a response?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: Yeah. Everything from FEMA to apply for FEMA was automated, so
yeah, that part was pretty painless in the beginning.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Okay. Did your town have a protocol? Was there any curfews?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: I couldn't tell you the details of it, but yes, I believe there
was. But the bottom line at that point was that when we were going into the
house, we have to go kind of late enough in the morning to where the sun was
00:43:00actually out and had to leave before the sun went down because there was no
electricity in the house.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Okay.
MILLIE GONZALEZ: Plus it was freaking cold, so only a couple of hours in the
house was all we could handle. I don't know about what the protocols actually
were. I'm sure there were, I'm sure that there were curfews, and I'm pretty
sure the curfews were early in the beginning. I want to say there were seven,
but again, I'm not positive at that. But yeah, we couldn't have stayed until
seven anyway because of the dark.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Okay. Who did you work with?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: For -- what do you mean?
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Your house.
MILLIE GONZALEZ: You know what? It was my mom and I, mostly.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Okay.
MILLIE GONZALEZ: In terms of the clean up? Is that what you mean?
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Well, yeah.
MILLIE GONZALEZ: Yeah, mostly my mom and I. My dad had come and helped for a
little bit, helped us kind of move stuff out, and we would pack garbage bags and
he would come and take them out to the curb, things like that. We had one day
where two groups of volunteers came on one day and helped us moved out, like
the furniture, because all of our furniture was gone, everything from the
00:44:00dressers and the standalone closets and…
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Wardrobes?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: Yeah. My mom's bed. My hospital bed was ruined, because once
it gets wet -- it's mechanical, so once there's saltwater in it, that's it, all
of it. So the day that the volunteers came, they kind of just uprooted all of
our furniture out--couches, side tables, everything.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: How did you cope with all your loss?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: I didn't at first. You're just trying to get it done.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Okay.
MILLIE GONZALEZ: You're just trying to get it done. But there were moments of
stress, moments where I would be at my sister's house and she would make a
comment about like, "Oh, your stuff's all over my floor." I'm like, "That's all
00:45:00I have." And I would get mad because that's all I have. By my stuff, she meant
three or four bags that I had brought with me. That was it. That's what I had
left. Really, it probably didn't hit me until a couple weeks later when I was
coming, when I was back going to work. I was driving to work and I literally
felt like, "Wow, I feel like I'm tired of throwing my life away, literally."
Like literally putting my life in industrial-sized garbage bags and putting them
on the sidewalk. It just gets to you at some point.
How do I cope? I don't know, crying. I do cope, but no. You know, that's it.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: How did your community cope?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: I think my community, they built different things. There's a
campaign called UB Strong, so Union Beach Strong.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Okay.
MILLIE GONZALEZ: Which I think is something that came out of this. And my
00:46:00community just tried to find and to help each other to find resources to how to
fix it.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Your community had a positive or a negative response?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: Both, certainly both. So I saw a positive response in the
sense of community building and the UB Strong campaign. There was a person who
collected -- who was like the central place to collect photos and things like
that that people had lost that were on the streets and in the marshes and things
like that. People went around collecting photographs and went to this central
person, and this person created a Facebook page and all this other stuff. That
was something that helped. But we also had town hall meetings in other towns,
where Union Beach residents were invited to go and people were waving fists and
screaming and frustrated and all of that, and so I think there's both. I think
that there's a sense of community but there's also a sense of anger and
frustration and everything else that goes on with the loss and the lack of
00:47:00response from insurance companies and things like that.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Did you feel safe where you were?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: Did I feel safe in Union Beach?
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Yes.
MILLIE GONZALEZ: Pre-storm?
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: No, after the storm, in terms of was there a lot of looting
or anything like that, crime, [unintelligible - 00: 47: 26]?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: So, did I feel safe? Yes. Frankly, we didn't have anything
worth stealing, so it didn't matter, or anything that was worth anything. I
mean even like -- what's that called? My Kindle, all that stuff was ruined
anyway. We didn't have anything to steal. We didn't have any of those things.
Yeah, I did. I did feel safe, but we did certainly hear stories of even -- a
00:48:00week into it, electricians coming out and people kind of attacking the
electricians for their copper because they're using copper wire and that was
what they could sell. Yeah, we heard terrible stories.
So yeah, there were terrible things, but no. I never felt unsafe. At that
point, our doors were open all the time because of the smell, everything else
that was going on, so everything. All of our windows and doors were open while
we were in the house. I never felt necessarily unsafe, but certainly cognizant
fact that there was stuff going on.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Okay. How was the response of the police or with your
interaction with emergency personnel? How did they respond? Were they very
friendly? Were they non-responsive?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: I don't really know how to answer that because we didn't
necessarily have interaction with emergency personnel, so sort of non-existent,
in some way. I would assume if we needed it, they would have shown up. Yeah,
00:49:00so I don't know how to answer that.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Any religious communities come out and help you?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: Yes. We had a group of Jehovah's Witnesses from Pennsylvania
and a group of another just religious community from Pennsylvania as well, but
I'm not sure who they were. The… gosh, what were they called? The -- I
forgot their name.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Okay. That's fine.
MILLIE GONZALEZ: Let's see. Something Church of Christ. The Gateway Church of
Christ came out and continues, I think, to work with the Union Beach Borough to
provide relief, supplies, and things like that. They were a huge, huge piece of
00:50:00the community. Unfortunately, for somebody like us who really pretty much lost
everything, our house is currently still on a demolition list. We're waiting
for our house to be demolished. But for other people who basically can do
repairs and needed refrigerator or needed bed, or needed whatever, somebody like
Gateway Church of Christ would help them to get that.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Okay.
MILLIE GONZALEZ: But we can't take a refrigerator, take a bed, because we had no
place to put it. So that didn't really make sense. But they were really helpful.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Did you get any aid, and where did it come from? Food,
community aid, governmental aid, any of those kinds of aids?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: Again, at Union Beach Borough Hall, there were opportunities to
get food pretty daily. I think they were offering lunch and stuff like that
daily. There were some kind of special days where a local restaurant would come
and do hot food, like barbecue or something like that, so we had that. Again,
00:51:00Gateway Church of Christ offered frozen meals at some point. That was weeks
afterwards. There is an organization called Portlight Strategies that works
with specifically disaster relief for people with disabilities. They early on
provided a small stipend to me directly for the couple weeks following the storm
just to help pay for food, that kind of stuff, and batteries and things like
that. Because again, we still, for two weeks basically after the storm, we had
no electricity, so to continue to pay for those kinds of things. Portlight
Strategies was huge. We didn't have insurance, like I mentioned. FEMA provided
early on two months, I believe, of housing assistance.
00:52:00
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Okay.
MILLIE GONZALEZ: Later on provided a very small amount towards, I guess, what
they're seeing as the costs of repair, which doesn't makes sense because we're
not repairing the home. We're demolishing the home, and we need to rebuild our
home, so what they're providing is nothing in comparison.
Then I also worked directly with the New Jersey Division of Disability Services
to try to help facilitate, because again, all of my supplies, my wheelchair --
I'm right now in a power chair, but my manual wheelchair broke a couple of days
after the storm from being in the house and getting the saltwater and everything
else. It just basically started to fall apart. Shower chair at the bathroom
and again, my medical, my hospital bed, all those things needed to get redone.
00:53:00Are we running the end of time? No?
So, all those things did happen. So I went directly to the New Jersey Division
of Disability Services thinking if they couldn't help me, they would at least
know who to direct me to, so that was helpful. I think -- though I'm not sure
of how the whole Portlight Strategy's connection happened -- they contacted me
on Facebook. I didn't know who they were. I don't know how they knew who I
was. I don't know how that happened, but that happened. And then, lastly
another thing that was awesome and probably -- there were two things that made
me cry early on in this whole situation. The first was a combination of going
into my town and seeing my neighbors look like zombies. Particularly, across
the street from us, there's an older couple who are retired. Their whole house
was flooded. I literally weeks after watch them taking their floors and their
walls out their front window. And it's just sad. And then seeing my mom's
00:54:00reaction to that, seeing that my mom was so sad about it, that made me sad. But
the other thing that made me cry was a good cry, and that was that within
twenty-four hours of my friends online, Facebook friends but real friends, in
the disability community, because mostly people who I had met at -- my
disability is spina bifida, so I had people that I met at the Spina Bifida
National Conferences who had become great friends. Within twenty-four hours had
started online crowdfunding page for me. So I have not received money from that
yet, but that was awesome, and that's where some of the community aid came from
was there.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Right.
MILLIE GONZALEZ: I think those were kind of the basics where aid came from.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: How long were schools out or before buses ran within the community?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: Yeah, so I would say at least two weeks from work/school. And
00:55:00in the community, the problem is that -- I mentioned earlier in the interview
that we have one basic grammar school in town, and that school was an evacuation
shelter place. Place of -- I don't know what they call them. I guess that's
technically a shelter, but where people would go to evacuate. However, they had
to evacuate that place because that place started to flood as well. Again, in
the first time in its history being there, that place flooded.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Yeah.
MILLIE GONZALEZ: So they have to move as well. So that was the main school. So
it took a couple weeks for students to be able to go back to school. Even when
they did, they went to an alternate location. For a while, they went to two
different alternate locations, so they split up the schools. And then
ultimately, they all ended up in one local, no longer used Catholic school
building, and they just now -- so you mentioned that we're in June, and that
00:56:00school, our local grammar school just moved back into their building a week ago, literally.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Okay. How did you contribute to your community?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: I'm going to talk specifically about the disability community,
just trying to find other people with disabilities in my community that may need
assistance because I knew some places that could possibly help them get
assistance. So I tried to do that. And then the other thing really was just
sharing information. It seemed like you could sell information, probably during
that time, because people just didn't know what to do. All these processes of
FEMA and all these processes of the Borough and if you had to turn off your
electricity and your sewage and your water and whatever, you name it, you had to
turn it off, and it's like, "How do you do all that? What do you need to do
first? Then who do you talk to? What form do you fill out? Where is the money
00:57:00coming from?" You start hearing about all these things, about the Robin Hood
Foundation or whatever foundation, they raised. $10,000 here and they rose more
there. Where do you get this money from? How do you connect to the people that
supposedly got all of these money? So it was just a sharing of information, so
literally just going to places and online talking to people and say, "How are
you doing? How are you doing? What are you doing? Here is the resource that
I've just found. See if it helps you. It didn't help me, but see if it can
help you." So just sharing information, probably one of the most -- even though
it sounds really simple, probably one of the most helpful things that you could
do at that time was just to help. And then you know what? Still, as crazy as
it sounds, even though at some point, it felt like I had lost everything, still
trying to contribute financially or otherwise to people who probably had less
than I had, even though I had nothing, still had less than I had in some ways.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Okay. Can you describe at length or if you feel --
00:58:00let's talk a little bit more about your losses.
MILLIE GONZALEZ: In some respects, I keep saying I lost everything, and in some
ways I did. But, as you guys have probably heard from others, the biggest
losses are pre-digital cameras and cellphones, when you had photos.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Memorabilia?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: Absolutely. Photos, stuff from -- my grandfather and my
grandmother are both deceased, and I was very close to them. And just the
stuff. We still had a few things that my grandfather always had on his desk.
And the minute the saltwater hits these things, the condition that they were in,
you just couldn't keep them. Again, I keep saying photos. Photos was probably
the worst thing to lose because they were… very few were able to be salvaged,
00:59:00very few. Yeah, just memories. Memories was the hardest thing.
Going through the silly things, like my diary when I was a teenager or younger
and trying to peel these pages apart, laughing at the few things that I could
read and being like, "Gosh, do I keep this? Do I try to dry it out?" and just
having to let go, having to let go.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Yeah.
MILLIE GONZALEZ: What a crazy experience. Talk about purging, like it's just
like a force purging of everyone. Yeah, so I've lost everything. So in the
basic level, I mentioned all my medical equipment, my medical supplies were
gone. I have monthly medical supplies that I have, and [unintelligible - 00:
59: 48] comes early in the month, so I had a month's worth of medical supplies
gone, all the medications. I buy a lot of custom jewelry, which is fake to
01:00:00begin with, so the minute it touches water, it's gone, so all that was ruined.
Stuff that seems insignificant but just to kind of give you sense of all those things.
Books--I love to read books--were gone. My electronics were gone, the few
things I did have. Computer and Kindles and mp3 players, all that gone.
Clothes. Even a couple days later, already the saltwater had started to kind of
deteriorate some of the clothes. It was kind of crazy. Everything in the
kitchen, bathroom, just supplies and stuff that are in the bathroom…
furniture, carpets. Yeah, everything.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Was your house gutted?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: Yeah. It started to be gutted. But when they started to gut
it, they realized how bad the damage was and it didn't make sense to continue
because they just decided it was more reasonable to tear it down.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Did you receive an orange sticker?
01:01:00
MILLIE GONZALEZ: No.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Okay.
MILLIE GONZALEZ: But, which doesn't makes sense because we received a statement
from the Borough that the damage of our house was more than fifty percent of its
worth and that it was unsafe to live in. But technically, the sticker was not orange.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Okay.
MILLIE GONZALEZ: So go figure, I don't know.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Your house has never been condemned and non-livable?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: It was deemed non-livable, yes.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: But not condemned?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: Right. It was -- and the problem was also that the stickers
were given out within the first couple of days, I think that first day that we
were back, and the assessment for that sticker was literally a walk around the
outside of the house. There was no way to see all the damage that was going on
like that.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Understandable.
MILLIE GONZALEZ: So I think it was not accurately based.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Okay. But you think that you probably would have gotten an
01:02:00orange sticker.
MILLIE GONZALEZ: Absolutely.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Okay.
MILLIE GONZALEZ: Pretty much guarantee that, yeah.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: How do you feel about the response that you got from your
local government, FEMA, the federal government?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: My first gut response is that almost eight months later, I'm
still waiting for a response, because their response has not been sufficient.
I'm still working with FEMA, so I'm not giving up with that quite yet. I have
applied to [unintelligible - 01: 02: 40] grants that my town -- my town. I
don't know about my -- when you say local government, my town, Borough Hall,
mostly volunteer workers have been great. I will say that. I don't know what I
think about the governor. I don't know what I think about FEMA as a structure.
01:03:00I'm still waiting.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Okay.
MILLIE GONZALEZ: Still waiting. I will let you know when I get a new house,
when I have a house to live in, when I get back into Union Beach, which is where
I live.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Do you feel like New Jersey adequately prepared for the
storm? When I say adequately prepared, I mean do you feel as though that they
had enough dunes, that they had a structured place, amenity and place for these
houses knowing that these are beachfront houses, homes? Do you think that they
did all that they could in warning everyone?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: In warning everyone, in the sense of evacuation, yes. All I
could say -- I don't know. I don't know how to answer that because I don't know
anything about actual protocols in terms of dunes and things like that. I just
don't know about that. But part of why I don't know them is the same reason why
01:04:00probably everybody else in Union Beach didn't know them. We didn't need to
know. In the thirty-four years I've been there and the forty plus years that my
family has been there, we've never needed to know. We've never had this problem before.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Okay.
MILLIE GONZALEZ: One of the houses was affected was actually on the cover of
Time Magazine. It was the house that when you looked at the house, you kind of
half of it…
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Half house?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: Yeah, half of it was standing and you can kind of see the
beach, the water, rather, through it. And my understanding is that was the
oldest house building in Union Beach.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: All right.
MILLIE GONZALEZ: Suffice to say that that the oldest existing house structure in
Union Beach was on the beachfront. It had never had this problem before. It
had survived however many years it had been there. We didn't need it. So I
don't know that we could have ever expected this to happen and truly prepared
for this. I don't know.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: By you saying that, do you feel as though there was nothing
01:05:00that you think could have been done differently?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: I don't know.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Okay.
MILLIE GONZALEZ: I don't know. I'm sure that there's always something more that
could be done. I'm just not sure that we would have done enough. I don't know
that we would have expected this to do more.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Okay, I understand. Do you think that anyone is to blame or
it was just nature having her way?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: Do I think anybody was to blame for this storm?
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Yeah.
MILLIE GONZALEZ: That's a funny question. In some sense, no. I think it's an
environmental scenario. I think as humans, we've probably pissed off Mother
01:06:00Nature, and I'm sure we have something to do with it. I don't think any one
person has anything to do with it or any one group of people have anything to do
with it. I think as humans, we've really pissed off Mother Nature, and I think
that's part of what's happening, so yes. Do I believe in some of -- I don't
necessarily believe in some of the conspiracy theories of, like, somehow
somebody made this happen so that we would go through this though, no. But I do
believe that -- I guess that as humans, I think that we've done a lot of damage
to the earth, and I think this is a result of that damage.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Okay. How do you feel about media coverage? Do you think
that the media have portrayed Union Beach accurately, or it was just the
sensationalized type thing that they had going on? Did you feel that Union
Beach was properly represented?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: That's interesting because I wasn't able to see a lot of the
coverage that happened directly after the storm, so I don't exactly know. I
01:07:00will say that I knew it was bad because other people were telling me how bad it
was based on what they were seeing. So I think that there was some sense of the
devastation on the news. I always feel as though not enough local voices are
heard on the news, so I don't have any real answer because I wasn't watching it.
But I would suspect that there was probably not enough local people talking
about what was going on. But yeah.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: How do you feel about Obama making his presence and Chris Christie?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: There's a lot that still needs to happen, and a lot people --
01:08:00we are not okay. Union Beach is not okay. Might there be some families in town
that are okay, that got there insurance money or had money and are able to
rebuild or do whatever they need to do? Sure. I'm sure there is, but I think
there's a lot more that needs to be done. I feel that it's one thing to put
yourself out there in the media. Let me say this, I would feel better if Obama
or Christie were out on the streets and there was no news cameras.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Okay. Chris Christie being very passionate about his state
through the news, did your opinion of him changed?
01:09:00
MILLIE GONZALEZ: No.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: How do you feel about the response of the rest of the country?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: As in most huge crises, I think the response from the rest of
the country was very strong in the beginning, very much appreciated. There's a
situation that I had, a moment that I had that I realized how important it was
with the rest of the country contribute in any way they can. And in some sense
I mean not financially but it doesn't only have to be financially. One of the
first days that I went back to Union Beach, we went to the Borough Hall to get
some supplies because they were giving away bleach and things like that. One of
the things that I had received was a box from the American Red Cross that said
-- and I should mention them too as somebody who provided some aid in town, but
who gave a box that said Emergency Kit. When I got this kit, I was just like,
01:10:00"Wow." When Katrina happened and I text to donate my $10, that just gets sent
to my bill and my bill's ridiculous anyway, like everybody else's cellphone
bill. It's another $10, right? But I realized that my $10, somebody in New
Orleans got a box that said Emergency Kit that my $10 probably helped to pay
for. It just shows the power of those little actions that people make that you
think in some sense are insignificant. They are not insignificant. So I think
that there was a nice response from the rest of the country. I love that people
came from other parts of the country to work and to volunteer and everything
else. I'm really happy to see a lot of young folks coming out and doing those
things. Overall, I think it's good. I wish -- and I know that some of it is
continuing, but I wish that realistically, people could stick around for longer
01:11:00until it really gets figured out.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Yeah.
MILLIE GONZALEZ: Yeah.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: How do you feel about the response that you received in your
time of devastation to the response that people in Katrina received?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: I think we didn't learn enough from Katrina. I think we didn't
learn enough. I was just at a conference about again, specifically for people
with disabilities about emergency response for people with disabilities, and I
think that there are some states that have learned from the mistakes or the
situations or the scenarios that occurred in Katrina. But there are other
places that have not learned from that. I think the fact that Katrina, that
there are people that were affected by Katrina that are still not in a stable
environment goes to show that we still have a lot work to do.
01:12:00
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: How has this shaped your environmental views? Does it make
you think about changing anything?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: Literally about the environment?
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Yes.
MILLIE GONZALEZ: No. It confirms the fact that the environment is much stronger
than we are and that we probably need to start paying attention more so than we
have in taking care of the earth and being prepared to protect ourselves from it.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Do you have any personal changes from the storm? Does the
storm make you feel like you want to move out of Union Beach completely, raise
your home, or take any more precautions?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: By FEMA regulations, we are required to raise our home, which
01:13:00is an interesting thing because as I mentioned a couple of times, I'm disabled,
so we have to raise our home. The early -- I don't know that this is still
accurate, but the early estimates or guidelines for raising our home in the area
that we're in is that we had to raise our home four feet higher than it
currently is.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Okay.
MILLIE GONZALEZ: From a disability perspective and from the ADA bylaws, for
every inch that you go up, you need a foot of ramp. If we have to raise our
house forty-eight inches, minimally forty-eight inches, which is four feet then
I need a forty-eight foot ramp, which means if you think about that, my property
is only 50 by 100. My ramp is going to be down the street. If I just build one
straight ramp, it would be down the street. That is the only thing that makes
01:14:00me reconsider living in Union Beach.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Okay.
MILLIE GONZALEZ: Union Beach is my home. It's all I know. New Jersey is all I
know. The other thing is that our mortgage was paid off, so basically we own
our property. So in some sense, it doesn't make sense for us to go pay to own
property somewhere else. We can just be rebuild, pay for the rebuild but still
own the land that we are on. Financially, it doesn't seem like a good idea to
go elsewhere, but if we stayed there, we certainly need to have different
precautions, 100 percent to have different precautions.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Do you have any political changes?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: Any political changes? No.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Okay. Have things returned to normal? I can't imagine.
MILLIE GONZALEZ: They have not returned to normal. Suffice to say that -- so
01:15:00I've lived in… basically lived at my sister's home on the second floor, which
is again, not accessible. I'm crawling up the stairs every day, crawling down
the stairs every day, because that's how I can get out. I've lived elsewhere
for a short period of time, but it was just not feasible financially or
logistically to be living somewhere else. Every day that I drive home or that I
drive from work back, it's hard for me to say that I'm driving home. I would
say I'm driving to my temporary home or I'm driving to my sister's house. It's
not home. Things have not really gone back to normal. The only normalcy that
there is--and I think a lot of people feel this, and other people that I've
talked to feel this--is that the normalcy is returning to the routine in the
sense of having a job to come to, which I'm incredibly grateful for it. I think
01:16:00people at this point are even more grateful for the jobs that they have, that
are going to help them get through this, but also having a place to go and
having good co-workers and having good friends. And despite having to change
spending habits, to rein in the way you spend money and what you do with your
time and running in energy right now, still trying to live your life. But
certainly, things are not normal, things are not back to normal.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Apart from being at your sister's home, are there any other
changes to your daily life? I guess in your case it would be an additive, like
driving a little bit longer to Keansburg, or maybe you might stroll by the house
01:17:00every day?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: I'm definitely -- so I am driving farther.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Okay.
MILLIE GONZALEZ: I mentioned before, the change of going from manual chair to a
power chair. It's different for me.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Okay.
MILLIE GONZALEZ: Just not having my own space. I'm not having my own home or
sanctuary, not having your own sanctuary. It's very, very different. And
feeling a little lost, feeling like every day you need to do something to get
back to a home, and knowing that even when you get back to a home, it's not the
home that you knew. It will still be your home. It's important. I'm hopeful
that I will have a home. But there's also a weird sense of although I have a
place to stay, I have a roof over my had, I have food and I have water now, I
01:18:00have electricity now, I'm homeless, in some way. That is something that on a
day-to-day basis you don't forget. It really puts homelessness into a different perspective.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Okay, all right. Do you have any changes to the outlook of
your community?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: I feel so -- in the beginning, I felt really, really close to
my community, like I said, and in some sense, I do, but more online we feel
connected. But because I'm not living in Union Beach right now, I just feel
really disconnect it. I would hope -- I'm hopeful that coming back and once
everybody's there and that people that are still there right now are connected
and are keeping a sense of community, because I think it's really, really
important. But I personally, right now feel disconnected in some ways to my
01:19:00community just because I'm not there.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: How about do you have any changes in the outlook of the world?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: In the outlook of the world, no. I think that there are good
people in the world. I think that the thing is that really make a difference
are our communities. I don't just mean our geographical community, but for me,
my disability community and my extended family and my friends are community. Or
the populations and the different identities that we take on, those are the
things that keep us going, because I think that aid governmental, organizational
aid only goes so far.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Yeah. Do you think that the storm had an impact on the
presidential election?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: Probably. I'll be honest. I'm not a big politics person, so
01:20:00-- but yes, I could imagine it did. I think there's been a lot of criticism of
how things have gone.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: What about -- being that, like I said before, Chris Christie
was -- he was gung-ho about New Jersey, do you think that his reaction to the
storm will change the governor election?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: What do I think?
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Will people change votes more on favor for him?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: I don't know, and the reason why I don't know is because,
again, I feel like we're not done yet.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Okay.
MILLIE GONZALEZ: I don't know. I was going to say I don't know if the elections
happened today, people would be pleased. But I don't know, because although I'm
01:21:00not where I need to be at, because my family is not where they need to be at,
and because a lot of families that I know were not where they need to be, that
doesn't mean that not everybody had that same situation, so I don't know.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: What do you plan to tell your future generations, the
children and the grandchildren, about the storm?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: That's a poignant question. One, just what it felt like.
There's that. But also the lessons of the storm, being that the gratitude for
being alive, because I know people that literally died in the storm. I know
people with disabilities who have died since the storm because they didn't have
access to medication, because they didn't have access to electricity for their
01:22:00oxygen, gas for their whatever. So I know people that have died. I literally
know people who have died since the storm.
So, gratitude would be one of the things that I will teach, and also, that stuff
is just stuff and memories are largely in your brain and in your memory, not so
much in things, because you got to hold on to… to an extent. And yes, we get
old. And yes, there's ways to lose your memory too, but that's the one thing
you can kind of hold onto regardless of what's happening environmentally. So,
hold onto those things.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: If you wanted to give a message, that would be the message,
or you have a different message that you would like to also give about the storm?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: About the storm? Don't use the word "devastation" so lightly
01:23:00until you see it, and realize that there are people around the country, around
the world certainly whose devastation is worst than even what we've seen, to
have compassion for people around the world, who their daily lives look like
what? Union Beach looked like a warzone when we got back. People live in
warzones around the world, and so to realize that what we went through is
incredibly serious and incredibly devastating but the devastation has many
different forms, and to also do what you can, volunteer-wise, financially,
01:24:00whatever, whatever you can do. Do what you can do, pick up and go, volunteer
time-wise, and also to really be a meaningful part of your community. Whatever
community you decide to put yourself into, be a contributing member of your
community, because community is what gets us through all this.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Okay. Word of advice -- now, Sandy was one devastation.
Now we have in Moore, Oklahoma. So what would be your word of advice for
someone in Moore, Oklahoma who this is fresh to them but you've in a sense been
there and you're still going through it? What can you say to them like, "I am
eight months later, you will be here eventually"? What is your word of advice
for them to help them get through?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: I think it's a combination of the couple of things that I've
01:25:00just mentioned. The first thing is gratitude for what you do have left.
Seriously, as corny as it sounds maybe, being grateful that you're freaking
alive still, just starting from there, starting from a place of gratitude.
Doing, making all the connections that you need to make, filling out all the
forms that you need to fill out. It's a lot of [unintelligible - 01: 25: 24]
forms that you have to write. Figure it out. And use your community. Use the
people that you know, and that you don't know. And become a source of
information for other people, because I feel like that's the only thing that's
gotten us through. And lastly, lean on people who are willing to allow you to
do that, because you will get on the other side of this. I still believe that.
I'm not on the other side, but I still believe there's another side of this and
things could be much worst.
01:26:00
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: What in your regards would be the ultimate legacy of Super
Storm Sandy?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: For Union Beach, I think symbolically, it's the house that I
mentioned before, the half house. For New Jersey, unfortunately, in some ways,
I think it's that whole Jersey Shore rollercoaster in the water image of kind of
what people think of New Jersey. But I think bigger than that, hopefully, part
of it is the whole concept of Jersey strong, which is the other thing. There
was a Union Beach Strong, the UB Strong thing, but there's also this kind of
Jersey Strong concept. I think that hopefully remains a legacy for years to
come, just that we're going to rebuild. We're going to be the Jersey Shore
01:27:00again. We're going to be New Jersey again.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Do you think that the Jersey Shore show accurately portrayed
the Jersey Shore?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: No, not at all.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Okay. Did I miss anything, or is there anything that you
would like to add?
MILLIE GONZALEZ: I'm not sure. I don't think so. Let me just look for stuff
that I had thought about in the past. Just talking out loud, I don't think
we've talked about all these things. Just we talked about kind of -- the one
thing I guess I would mention is just in terms of post-storm relief, things that
01:28:00FEMA offered other than money was some different housing options. But for me,
it was a matter of getting accessible housing options but also getting options
that felt safe. They were in communities that did not feel safe to me, and I
said at Union Beach, even after the storm, we felt safe in Union Beach, whereas
the options that I was being given for temporary housing did not feel safe. As
a woman, as a person with a disability, all of it just did not feel safe. I've
talked about access to medical supplies, medical equipment, still needing all
those things. Not having a place to put them right now but needing them too,
really, as a quality of life issue. We're talking about the new building codes
and what that would mean for me in terms of accessibility, the importance of
trying to find the funds. Again, hearing about all these funds and not knowing
where they are. Then also, as again, a person with the disability, for example,
01:29:00some of the funds went to a local organization that deals with people with
disabilities. If I'm not eligible -- because I work full time and I'm not on
governmental assistance, I am therefore ineligible for some local, non-profit
organizations' funding. But if those are the organizations that are receiving
funds and those are the organizations that are supposed to be distributing us
funds to people with disabilities, I get kicked out of the mix because I'm not
eligible from the get-go to get those funds. There's a big problem just in
terms of access to resources for people with disabilities that I see needing to
be addressed to. What else?
The fact that something that was -- in addition to the substantial damage that
01:30:00happened to my home, to the structure, to losing my medical supplies and
equipment, the memories that are irreplaceable, for sure, there is also the
issue of health because it was cold, because there was mold, because of the
stress on top of that, that just kills your immune system to begin with, so
there's been -- my mom and I both have since the storm had more health problems
than we've had in a very long time, so there's that piece as well. We are still
currently waiting for demolition, which I mentioned, waiting to hear about
grants, which we're hoping to get because there's not enough money coming from
things like FEMA. The fear that there are dwindling resources. Like I said,
the Gateway Church of Christ is providing a lot of things to people who still
have a home that need new whatever, new furniture and new appliances, things
like that, but there's a fear of whether or not those resources are dwindling
01:31:00and will be there for when we finally do need them, so there is that fear. I
don't know. That's kind of my thoughts in the nutshell. Some of it is
repetitive, but just kind of talking out loud in terms of things that we've
experienced. I think that's it.
TRUDI-ANN LAWRENCE: Okay, great. Okay, and so I'm ending this recording at 12: 38.
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